wow. sometimes life throws you a series of tragic events one after one after one, but if you make it thru it, and dont give up, things will have to move up to at least normal like they were before and it will make you appreciate things you had started taking for granted, that are really things to be thankful for. extremely.
the last 6 months, i lost my 1st place in class, then i ended up not graduating 2005 at all. i gave up graduating at green forest, for no apparent reason to anyone, sometimes not even myself b/c ive heard so much crap over it.i kept falling, working as a waitress, in tyson (for two days haha) even hotels. i experienced so much in such a short period of time. i realized who my real friends were, i had to live out on my own. i experienced all ive wanted to with the drug scene and got that all out of my system. i tried to analyze myself, and find out who i really am, why i think the way i do, and changing my habits of how i think of the world in general. it was such a pesimistic outlook. and ive found out the more i grow up the harder things are thrown at me, but no matter what i know i will not be handed more than i can bear. i will make it through, and already i can see the lite at the end of the fucking tunnel. XD
i am working on becoming a CNA, and getting my certification. in a month i will be making 8 dollars an hour as a nurses aid. I first plan to pay off my fines with the episode involving kia, and get that off my shoulders. and before i have to return to school next year and finally get my diploma i plan on having a new car by august. I'm not sure how im gonna keep my job and juggle school at the same time, but im determined to not let anything interfere with what i will HAVE to do. no people, no drugs, NOTHING.
on a lighter note, travis jus texted me and asked me if i was hungry so i might just go chill with him. people wont get off my case, but we are just friends. i have no intentions of any sort of relationship rite now of ANY kind. im worried about ME. me myself and I and you know what? it feels grand.